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15 July 2009 @ 06:40 pm

Its really weird to be on the other side of the School. You see your teachers, and you realize that sitting in that staff room, you are actually colleagues with your ex-teachers for that whole week. It get even weirder when teachers you don't expect to remember you goes, "Aren't you a former Temasekian?" Heck, even Sabri remembered. HAHAH.

I admit I wasn't an outstanding student, so getting recognized is pretty surprising. Maybe teachers are not that ignorant after all right?

Mdm Wan said it feels so fast. I guess four years may seem a short time under certain circumstances. Maybe it takes more than four years to forget someone right?

Forgetting is something that can't be help. So is remembering. So I guess you can't choose what you forget and what you remember.

Damn.

I must say. This week has definitely been less lonely. =D

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12 July 2009 @ 12:04 am

Last Day.

No matter how bored I was during the whole primary school practicum due to having no one to talk to, I still had a bittersweet moment leaving the school. You could say I might be sucking up, but I still can't forget that even though these people didn't bother to talk to me, they still bothered to help me out around the school.
( Kiss Ass )

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10 July 2009 @ 08:07 am

I don't understand Twitter.

YouTube, Facebook, Twitter.

What else are they going to come up with?

Check out Ryan Higa's video on YouTube titled Tweet Whore. Hilarious! HAHAH.

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09 July 2009 @ 07:28 am

Technically, this is illegal?

I think this is not allowed, but technically, school is supposed to start at 7:30 and now its only 7:29. Although, the bell just rang. But its okay. I have one more period before my lesson observation.

Check out what I've been doing?

Wait a minute. I'm using the government's connection. If someone finds out, I'm dead. OHwells. This is a totally harmless entry. OFF TO WORK! =)

EDIT:
( Self Absorbed Boredom. )

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05 July 2009 @ 10:39 pm

I wonder what Happened.

Finally caught War of the Worlds on Channel 5 just now, and all I can say is, I'm baffled. Literally. Like no freaking idea on what the h the whole movie is about, what the motive of the aliens was, why the aliens died, and why Tom Cruise's whole family managed to save themselves from obeliration. That is a mystery I'll never solve. Or I can just ask someone who knows.

So, I just wonder what happened. Why was there a change eh? Was the cold treatment obvious? HAHAH. Well,that's a mystery I'll never solve. Or I can just ask someone who knows. HAHAH.

My feelings are overrated. Right now, I think its better this way. I might lose a friend, but for now, I don't really care. Because I can't afford this kind of thoughts in my head anymore. I just can't uh. I just can't be in the same situation I was in JC. It was just too unhealthy for me. I like the period where I need not worry about stupid thoughts in my head. Then again, when have I ever not wonder about my stupid thoughts?

I guess right now, I'd rather go to the period when things were much simpler in my head, where I can just throw those thoughts away. But now I can't. =(

The insanity of my whole family somehow keeps me sane. =)

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01 July 2009 @ 10:19 pm

Koreans

Okay. So watched my second episode of red thread today, and so far, I'm impressed with all the drama! Although, the way some of the actors speak really call for a smack in the face, but I still have not lost the interest in following the series. HAHAH. Although, I did just realize that its a 40 episode series, and I only started watching at the 34th episode, but I'm sure I will catch the good parts! =P

Caught another korean drama series called the Accidental Couple, and an hour of it, I think I"m glued. This is what I've gathered so far. The story is about a Celebrity marrying a average Joe to cover up her relationship with a high status politician's son, because this son is engaged to a daughter of a established person also.

Haiyo. The things people do to cover things up.

What I think is that things are only complicated if people make them complicated. Things are awkward only if people make it awkward. Feelings can be controlled. The thing is, humans understand this. However, what we as humans, aren't able to do is actually controlling our actions and feelings one hundred percent. We just can't do that. We tell our mind that this is the right thing to do, this is the way it should be, this is how we should act to make things less akward, but what do we do? The exact opposite of what our mind has been telling us all along what the right thing should have been. So why? Well, I don't think I know. HAHAH.

As humans, we make mistakes. Learning from our mistakes is what we should be doing. How many people actually do that? Minimal, I think. That's why history has a way of repeating itself, and that is why no matter how you think you've learnt from your mistake, there isn't really a guarantee that the objective of lesson that you were supposedly to have learnt, was met.

The things I come up with. =P

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01 July 2009 @ 12:19 am

Exaggerations.

I exaggerated. I'm sorry. =P

[quote]my hair is the only kental thing i swear[/unquote]

HAHAHAHAHA.

FREAKING HILARIOUSSS!

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30 June 2009 @ 08:36 pm

You Suck.

You made me feel this way, you made me cry, you gave me hope on something I didn't even want. So for that, my friend, you suck. You made me doubt myself, you made me feel down, you made me rake up past memories. So for that, my friend, you suck.

Yet, I can't hate you. Why? I don't believe in holding grudges. I couldn't even stand one whole day of giving you the cold treatment. Why? Because I know to others, this might be a small matter, I know its a small matter, but how can I ever trust you when it came down to the simplest of things, you can't even tell me the truth?

Why ask me to be part of something when you didn't even mean it?

I'm bitter, I know I am, but I just can't keep letting others doubt myself. I just can't.

I'm going to confront you, my friend, because I'm a strong person, and I just don't let anybody mess with my mind, and my friends.

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28 June 2009 @ 10:06 pm

What is this?

I realized this whole week is going to be a jammed pack week. And I don't even have time to shop for practicum.

I have no idea what I'm going to wear for my first ever day in school, and I'm sure I wrote down somewhere what I'm supposed to do, but I really don't know. OHMYGOD. I really don't know.

Now I'm panicking.

Ohwells.

Actions must coincide with words, you idiot.

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22 June 2009 @ 08:08 pm

Stupidity

Just let time pass,maybe then time will teach you what to do.

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21 June 2009 @ 12:06 am

I'm ready for the Lift Up.

Today made me too excited I think. Haha. Not necessarily a good or bad thing is it?

I think controlling your own feelings is something that takes a lot of effort. You think you can, and its always easier said than done. Some are stronger to do it, some appear to be able to do it, and some just seem to effortlessly do it. So, where do I stand? HAHA.

Here are some photos from Australia from like ONE plus month ago. These were taken on the last day at Sydney. =D I kinda miss the whole trip now, and I don't know how much I'm looking forward to the next and new semester because the past one have been pretty eventful and surreal. HEH.

( Hugh Jackman )

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18 June 2009 @ 07:03 pm

When Life Gets Boring.

I don't know about everyone else, but I've always noticed how life goes through many phases.

Sometimes, things can get so eventful, interesting, filled with many happenings.

And then, there were those times where boredom consumes you, you have nothing much to do, and everything that surrounds you starts to get just a little less interesting.

I don't know which phase in life I actually prefer. Actually, I do, but I think the obvious answer would be the latter.

I read my diary which I kept throughout my whole JC life. I'm just happy I'm over that phase. But I'm just worried history will come to repeat itself, then, I still won't have learnt from my past.

So what do I do? Clarify with the past to tackle the future?

Hmmm.

If I'm bored later tonight, will probably upload some photos. =D

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12 June 2009 @ 10:22 pm

Mini Hiatus?

So I realized that subsonciously, I've been on a mini hiatus on this online space.

I guess, the excitement of Australia plus all the times I've been going out have pretty much distracted me from self-reflection.

BUT, I haven't hung out with anybody for the past two days, so I've had a lot of time thinking.

And I realize I don't really like thinking, and immersing myself in thoughts.

I'd rather drown them all out, and just enjoy.

I sound shallow and stupid, but I know I'll get over this phase.

Yeap. I always have to anyway.

CHEERS MATE! =)

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08 May 2009 @ 01:15 pm

I can't believe I'm going to Cairns.

I will be flying off on the 10th of May!

I'm pretty damn excited about the whole trip, and even more excited that we have a whole array of activities planned out for us, and I just can't believe I'm really going on this trip.
Packing is pretty much an impossible task. Despite the excitement, I just can't bring myself to pack all my stuffs.
Well, I definitely won't be updating this space during the trip, but but but, good news, if you guys want updates on the NIE Travel Club trip to Cairns, please click here

Till then.

=)

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04 May 2009 @ 11:53 pm

The Idiot I call My Brother

First he said, "Adiiiiiikk, wahh, dah besar seyyy, dah ada boyfrienddddd" [Wah Sister, so big already, got boyfriendd already seyy]

Then I replied, "No lah, I don't have one."

THEN he answered, "Adiikk, dah besarr, dah tua, masih takda boyfriendd? kesian" [Wah. sister. you so big already, still no boyfriend ah?]

Idiot.

Siblings are people whom you are the most irritated with, but somehow you just know you can't do without them because you just love them so.

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02 May 2009 @ 01:14 pm

Merry Holidays

Everyone's definitely trying to fill up their days with activities.

Feeling healthy now because I've done some healthy activities such as swimming and roller blading so far, and its been really fun!

Caught WOLVERINE with beloved WaniRaudahShidaHidayahFaridFarhanZuhriyyahShaifulFitriLoloqUcop yesterdayyy. It was awesome lah the movieeeeeeeeee. If the guys enjoyed Angelina's Jolie butt in Wanted, I'm sure the girls would enjoy WOLVERINE this time! HAHAHAH.

Gosh. Hugh Jackman/Wolverine cannot be any hotter. *meltsss*

Thanks to Zuhriyyah and Farhan for the ultra nice bracelet, and thanks to everyone for the Famous Amos Cookies. Deliciouss!

Can't wait to do more healthy and fun activities y'all!

Lepak today.

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29 April 2009 @ 02:19 pm

Let the Celebrations Come.

Exams are over.

Okay. So what now right?

The Cairns Blog is having layout difficulties, and I still haven't called up the schools I'm posted to. I have one and a half day left to do it.

People are trying to make plans since exams are over, and people are supposedly to be free, but why do I get this feeling that everywhere, people are buzzing with things to do?

Or maybe its just this feeling that I get.

Then again,I can't wait to catch up with my friendss.

Stupid bed bugs are still irritating the hell out of me.

Somehow, my home doesn't feel so comfortable anymore. =(((

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24 April 2009 @ 09:12 am

The Birds Singing

Okay. So the birds are more like gawking to me, but they're still beautiful. Right?

I'm still not done with exams by the way, so for those who are done, you guys can enjoy yourselves to your fullest. No. I'm not going to be bitter about it. I'm not a bitter person. =)

To think that something that occurred months ago, or even years ago could still have an effect on you and on other people, is something that I've come to learn from.

So, actions have consequences. I think that's my motto in life. Because I base the decisions I make on those three words.

Sometimes, its just not funny. =P

One thing I'm not able to practice though is when I preach, "Say what you want to say."

Guilty as charged. =P

LET'S DO CHEMISTRY!

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20 April 2009 @ 07:13 pm

We Are Here To Study.

Study study study. Make sure you study hard. Make sure everyone else studies hard. Study study study.

Life goes on, while you study you know. But for you, life stands still, time passes by, while you sit down there and just study.

I can't wait to busy myself with not only notes.

But, after exams, I wonder, will I be able to distract myself from all these nonsensical thoughts, like how effective studying was in distracting me? Will I be busy enough not to put stupid thoughts into my head?

I hope so. I truly hope so.

I need to improve my typing man.

And I've got to start studying. Seriously. =))

AND OHMYGOD. THEY"RE TRYING TO SELL LATIKA?! Well, she definitely deserves a better life, but who is to say she'll be better off being sold to some rich family?

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14 April 2009 @ 02:11 pm

When you say those 3 words.

Everyone is is busy right now, its hard to think what everyone's thinking. Hahah.

I have a feeling that everyone's going through a lot right now, but because of the exams, and the exam stress, everyone putting aside their thoughts and feelings just to concentrate on what's most important of the whole semester. The paper which is going to account for 70% of our grades, is coming soon, bebeh.

But, feelings are just feelings. They might mean nothing.

I just can't wait for the end of exams where everyone is free to do whatever they want, feel whatever they want, think about whatever they want.

I finally gave my ULTIMATE present to Shida, like at 1 am just now. I hope she loves it. YES. LOVE.

Well, I really should be getting to back to studying. Actually, I haven't even started. Ohwells. HAHA. WOOTS!

GO FATIN! GO EVERYONE! :D:D

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